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 Wow. . . lately, I've been feeling very good :D I broke up with my (real life) boyfriend, because he cheated on me o.o Yeah, you'd probably think i'd be going insane right now; but no. Lucky for him, I was already in love. Not with him. No, someone special. 
My ex-bf never knew about my anime-obsession, never. He thought I was just the party girl.
When he found out about my different side, he was shocked; dissapointed. 
But I met someone, just a week before I broke up with him. In theory, I actually cheated on my ex, too. But who cared?
I met him via social networking and stuff. He lived  far away. . . Well, only 2 hours away with the train. 
I only talked with him for a week, but I already knew I was falling for him. He was sweet, gentle, caring and funny; Everything I ever asked for.

Then, the day came that he visited me. January 2nd, 2011. I was nervous when I arrived at the trainstation, I mean, I've only seen him on pictures and webcam; What if he was different? What if he thought I was ugly? What if he regretted everything?
But no, when I noticed him walked towards me, I just felt such excitement inside of me. I gave him a hug. . . It was cold outside, but I still could feel him warmth. 
I felt a bit awkward in the beginning; I didn't know quite what to say or to do. Would be holding his hand be too much? Would be kissing him be too dramatic? Would be telling him I love him be too rushed? In the end, we just ended up talking and talking about crazy stuff. I felt at ease.

When we arrived at my place, we went to my room, starting watching funny videos. . . It was so funny! :D And I felt him hand coming closer to mine. . . I just knew it! He wrapped his arms around me and I leaned on him. My heart was beating like crazy!!! He was giving me pecks on my cheeks, just once in a while. Without being able to move, I just smiled. I turned my head and looked in his eyes; They were so blue! And then I gave him a kiss, and another one, and another one. . . Wow! 

I just hoped he could stay with me forever, but it was getting late. It was 7 pm, so we headed out to the trainstation again. His train would leave at 7:23 pm. . . I convinced him to take the next one! We walked a bit when he told me that he loved me. Everything became clear now. 
At 7:53, he left me. As I watched the train moving away from me, tears filled up my eyes. How could time go so fast?

Receiving text messages, I still felt him a bit here. When I got home, I lied down on my bed, because it still smelled like him. 
When could I see him again? Next week, the week after that, or maybe later? We text consistantly and usually he calls me once a day. Hearing his voice just completes my day. 

People say that getting over an old love is finding a new love, but did they ever mention that maybe this new love could also change your life forever? Well. . . I believe it would. But loving someone so desperatly makes you doubt things, too: Would he love me as much as I loved him? Would I be the only girl for him? Too afraid to ask him those things, will make me question every moment. What if he just tells me that he found another girl, more pretty than me? That would definitly hurt a lot . . .
But for now, I'll just keep loving him, no matter what. 

❤ Love just comes and goes, but I know my heart would always belong to you.
❤ You are the best thing that every happened to me
❤ You accept me as I am, pretty or ugly, sweet or mean, funny or lame; you're just mine

Unintentionally, I look at the sky like, It looks similar to when you smile; Specifically your dazzling smile baby

♔ By Jef.

Thanks for reading guys! 
- Ruby

Oh gosh!! My exams are killing me ;__; !! Well, I've done 3 of the 4 i have... But yeah.. Tuesday I had History and it went pretty well ... though I'm still a bit unsure xD today I had Geography and Philosophy o.o Well Geo sucked !! DDx it was so hard! And Philosophy went well :) but it's one of my fav subjects so yah xD Tomorrow I have Politics.. :DD ...

Well and I can't really seem to edit. I mean; I found songs, I found insperation but the one thing thats bothering is my mouse o.o
I have this convertable keyboard and the mouse is like.. installed to it. It's almost the same as a laptop. Anyway; the mousepad is being really weird and its taking ages to like.. go to the right thing Dx so masking ish HARD!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope i can get a new mouse ...
cause cause.. i wanna do lotsa masking this time 8D
Oh and I'm using Durarara!! again.. CAN U BELIEVE IT? xD It's like been out of fashion lately, but that's why I wanna bring it back ^^
Cause it's a really good anime and i love it edit it actually..

Anyway I'm gonna enjoy my rice now :3
BYEEEEE

-Ruby

Oshet 8D my first day on LJ! I actually don't know why I made one and how I'm going to use it... probably gonna make some icons or sth D;
Alrighty.. well-- I just might write something about my day I guess ;o
Today I actually cleaned my room o.o which is .. rare xD i'm not done yet but I'm getting there :DD
it's all dusty here now D; and I found lotsa stuff I lost xD And now I wanna take a shower~

So, as some of you might know, I have a youtube account, xRubiiSamax, where I upload my.. stuff xD aka AMV's (animated music videos)
At the moment, I'm working on some stuff. I hope I can finish at the end of the week or maybe next week, because I have my autumn break now ;o I'm working on my AMV Idol Tournament video :DD i'm so happy that I made it to round 3 ! I'm already done with my first video and my second one is coming too ^^ Going on, I'm also working on a MV (music video) with the British series called Skins. It's a lovely show ! I never editing real life action before, so it's kinda hard for me. And since it's going to be a full video, it'll take a while. But I seem to have lots of insperation for it, so it'll be okay :D

Anyway, I'm going to keep this short cause I guess no one will read it if it's like 10 pages long xD Thanks for visiting and I'll talk to u guys later :)
Byee~

-Ruby
"Back to yesterday"